have i changed?

maybe..

cuz people change everyday, n all the time.. but sometimes it is just not so noticable..

in the case of relationship..
currently i felt that im back to myself a few years ago..
back before i met my ex..
that girl who couldnt open her heart to anyone at all..
whenever things get serious, i bail...

except that now i understand more about loving someone..
n cant ignore the fact that when things turn ugly n u start to hate,
it'll be as deep as the love u've once given out.
plus, hurt.. it takes time to heal..

i realise i cant affort all that right now..

i've told few of my close friends that im surprise i could start seeing someone so soon
not in a relationship, but simply dating..
last sem.

n it didnt turn out as great as i thought it should be..
happy..
but too much to handle..

i have not lose my faith in love.
just not ready yet..
not willing to put myself in vulnerable condition anymore
n realise that i need to protect myself, by myself..