The girl I wish I was

I agree happiness is a choice

N I always made the wrong decision 

It's like I'm lost in a jungle at night n I refuse to find my way out

Just sit there n embrace the darkness 

Not wise

But that's who I am

Lucky me, there's always a brand new day 

The sun will shine no matter how much I want to stay in the darkness that I'm fear of..

Still lost maybe?

But at least some positive energy to keep me going

N I can conclude sun shine is the most valuable thing that most ppl take for granted *guilty*

Fitness first boxing class with trainer

So, my first session's evaluation result turn out pretty good

I scored 14 over total poing of 24..

My trainer is pretty linear I guess.. Hehe..

My body is surprisingly..... Fit.......

 

I shall try my very best to maintain this..

I aim to lose more body fat actually

>.<

So the second training was boxing class..

It turned out well too!

I'm glad my trainer is young n less intimidating (he is only 20 year old my goodness)

Had real fun punching even though my arms looked like lollipop with the boxing gloves on..

it's blardy heavy!!

I'm guessing each side is half a kilo..

Before u call me a whinny baby, I'd like to clarify that it's really hard for a person who can't do a full single pumping like me..

Trainer sets the punching session at 6 mins intervals.. He said I'm supposed to rest my fist.. 

BUT...... Only the fist -___-

I did squad, cheat pumping, sit up punch, lunges, jumping jacks etc etc i can't remember what f name exercise they are.. Oh dear........ 

Rest my ass -___-

My leg sores like mad now even though 2 days have lapsed T.T

Walk like a penguin (trust me its already been cute-tified)

I start to enjoy it though..

The feeling of breaking my limits..

I wanna stay healthy

N of course, S.L.I.M! *whistle*

曾经的荒唐？

要记住

这不是比赛

要坚持

若赢了「它」

就输给了自己

所以要好好爱自己

两年前的那个我好笨

傻傻地向往，追随不切实际的「好」

我的目标是让人刮目相看

成为惊天动地，让人咽不下，和充满刺激的

......

小辣椒!

Tired

Physically..

Mentally..

With a lil bit of emo..

It's not easy to tell someone the truth

Especially ugly truth

It's often unappreciated n might get it backfired 

Or 

Appreciated but not welcomed in a good manners

Either way

It's hell..

It's a dirty job nobody likes to do

Or only idiots will do..

Birthday wish

Last year I was in Philippine 

Alone..

Intercontinental hotel was quite thoughtful to surprise me with a slice of cake placed on the coffee table..

Found it when I'm back to hotel after a whole day of training..

I was glad but lonely..

Didn't quite care (I'm a loner)

But somehow, I wished someone would've share the cake with me..

I enjoyed my training 

But I also learnt that I need friends..

Birthday song n being the centre of attention once a year isn't that intimidating after all..

Part of my wish came true..

Maybe because I kept it simple?

I wished for a celebration with friends and family

So this year I booked a flight to bkk with joe first..

But the flight end up with 6 extra delightful companion.. :)

Well this I really don't expect..

Cuz we didn't plan for it..

Just one fine morning air Asia is giving zero fare tickets and boom!

First booking for joe and I

2nd booking for lekho, Simon n fv

3rd booking for sis n the bf..

It was fun.. Crazy shopping! And I didn't have to carry anything :P

Joe did all the heavy duty (love u!)

Anyway..

The 2nd wish was........

I wanted a whole cake.. Not a slice..

(This wish didn't came true)

But it somehow come in as a sweet surprise n its better than a whole cake.. 

Dessert menu was pre-hidden by the waiter.. 

So I got 2 slices of cake with loads of whipped cream n 2 big scoops of ice cream.. Yummy~ picked by fv dear..

Tiramisu n choc lava cake :)

P/s:

Though, I want to add.. There's a lil flaw to my bday celebration.. I didn't wanna drill on it but also didn't wanna be THAAT nice to not bitch about it..

Just....

One human actually suggest to dine at road side food stall instead of chocolate ville.. 

Chocolate ville is a really nice huge garden themed restaurant recommended by my friend Yat n I thought we wouldn't be able to drop by for this trip already..

But a last minute change of plan.. Instead of the roof top bar at baiyoke tower, everyone else agreed on choc ville since they know ill prefer nice dine instead of boozing..

Dear human, road side food stall.. Really?

You can go ahead if u want to.. Seriously..

ANDDDDD this human took the first bite of my bday cake followed by a loud "whoaaaaaa!" Fast n quick scoop..

I find it really rude.. 

I'm not sorry at all to say it out.. if u must know, u lose quite some respect from me already..

Kthxbye!

Easiet bread pudding recipe yumsssss

This recipe is as simple as 1,2,3

1. Mix

2. Arrange

3. Bake

N then serve it warm with a splash of milk/condensed milk or scoop of ice cream.. Heaven!

Oh oh maybe some whipped cream n own choice of fruits.. Wow!!

Here's a picture of the end result to tempt you hehehe.. 

Its a good try! my first attempt too..

Good news for not a pro baker like me, as I'm not fully equipped with all those fancy baking stuff too.
I just took a trip to Giant (local grocery) n I got everything i need. 

Ingredients:

- 500ml (2 cups) of milk

- 4 eggs

- 6 croissants (rm4.9 from giant)

- 1 teaspoon cinnamon powder

- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract 

- 3/4 cup of sugar 

- Raisin (optional)

- Butter to spread over the baking pan

Equipment:

- oven

- baking pan preferably square (can get from daisho rm5)

- large mixing bowl

- whisk 

- measuring cup

Preheat oven 350 degree 

Mine is mini oven so the max is 250 degree. Oh well, as long as it works. 

Step 1 - MIX

- Break 4 eggs in a large mixing bowl

- Pour in the milk, followed by sugar, cinnamon powder, and vanilla extract.

- Whisk it! Until the sugar dissolve. Set aside. Now move on to the next step

Step 2 - ARRANGE 

- Cut the croissants into small pieces/ cubes. If possible don't flatten it, let it remain airy.

- Spread butter over the baking pan, evenly (to prevent the side of pudding from burning)

- Arrange the croissants in the pan n sprinkle raisins (hide the raisins between croissants if u don't like it burnt)

- Pour the egg n milk mixture into the pan n use a fork to lightly press the croissants n let it absorb the egg n milk mixture. **bubble bubble**

Step 3 - BAKE!

- what i did differs from recipe i got from the internet. it says bake it in pre heated oven, 350 degree for 45 mins.

- i baked them in mini oven, 250 degree top n bottom heat n the top of it turned brown in around 5 to 7 mins.

- So I switched it to 120 dregree n bottom heat only n continue baking for another 25 to 30 mins.

I suggest mini oven user to check it from time to time cuz the heat travels differently from proper oven.

Cut open the centre of the whole tray of bread pudding to check if it solidify.

Sigh.. Just eat it already!! *burps*


I use :

2nd carton from left is exactly 500ml

9x9 medium sized baking pan

any kind of vanilla extract

Story behind this picture

It was back in early of this year around February.
We were in Genting outdoor theme park, queuing for a ride.
It was quite a fine sunny day.
And for ppl who knows me well...... I'm a real life vampire.. I can't stand sun lights! I love gloomy rainy day n of course night time too :P

So him.. My man.. :) not a fan of sun light as well.. Stood in front of me.. Shading me.. I felt so protected hiding behind him.. :)

回忆

Was looking at old pictures during work
Something I cherish so much n i know it will remain lovely in my memories
Feeling grateful to have that chapter in my life

遗憾的是我抓不着这友谊
各奔前程了
我会远远地不停地pray for your best :)

痛。快。

不痛。不快。坏习惯，依然存在。

Now n then

Months ago before having an iPhone I have this habit of surfing net before I sleep
More accurately, until I can sleep :P
Which reminds me I actually slept with my laptop every friggin night .. How loving..

N now the routine change a lil
My laptop is kinda covered in dust.. -_-
Cuz I'm allergy to laptop after work
Personal n working laptop, both!
I might recover soon though..

Oh, n I'm blogging using iPhone blogger apps :) <3
P/s: Pls tell me get it lol

May 15

Exactly a year ago
I was still a student sitting for my final professional paper for ACCA
Stressing to pass in order to graduate

And you....

I remember you pick me up from kl night class
This cute lil thing took over my place
Had seat belt on
Waiting innocently for me :)

Gosh It's been a year

:)

想念开心的我
同时爱着努力让我开心的你 ：）

bitter.sweet

i learn that

we shall never walk away..

if you cannot bare with the risk that..

there might not be any invitation back in anymore..

so stay,

laugh as you may
cry if you wish

 

@Melb, Dec 2011

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

the balance

from the day u've decided to hand your heart to someone else, u give yourself a chance to be happy.. but also bound to get hurt..

逞强的后遗症

今天的我。有种说不出原因的闷闷不乐。
 原来＂没关系＂ 也有限期。
 
很希望你可以很快地再看见方向;
期待着下一步。

romantic.. fail? haha!

as we were talking about having Exs..
n how weird it is to have a "stranger again" in our lives
so i asked him,
if he can ever imagine me turning into his "stranger again" as well..

a big answer "NO!" which was fair enough

followed by "it will only happen under 1 condition, in our next life!"

which sets me in a romantic mood n so i asked "then will you come after me again?"

him "maybe?"

me.... -___-

him "i cant promise, cuz what if in our next life you'll be some China girl n i'll be some Philipino dude.. then its impossible for us to be together again right?"

..........

oh well.. this is him..
only if u could understand y it is extra comforting for me.. haha!
:)

says it all

fun quests on the table @Ben's

a thankful heart

for a person who accepted my mistake
no matter how foolish it is

i have no idea how to show my gratitude
because rather than punishment ive got a lesson instead

promise i'll grow up!

追。赶。输。累

也许我不怕吃苦
但不能让我同一时间地感到一文不值。。。

人间地域
就是你很清楚明白
连死了算了
也解决不了烦恼

我真的崩溃了

哭着吃晚餐
用一个人不优雅的可怜
换回个释放和抱怨的空间
感到可悲。却满足，欣慰。

祈求上天给我解脱

P/S: 很庆幸这坎坷的路上有你
你不在
但我并不寂寞

coffee . love

对你的爱
像咖啡
从小就不明白妈怎么会爱上这杯饮料
一开始对它的印像，只有苦。
后来我却爱上了它的味道
浓浓的，香香的。闻一闻开始怀疑我的想法。它，真的是苦的吗？

爱咖啡的人，还记得你喝的第一杯咖啡吗？
是为了什么而喝的。
考试开夜车？
就纯粹试一试？
还是被你另一半影响？

我，在爱上咖啡之前。
没泡过一杯属于我自己的咖啡。
可能吗？
哈哈！
我都偷喝我妈的！
然后慢慢问她我可以喝一杯咖啡吗？ 她也就教我怎么泡它。
然后就无法自拔 ：）

到我遇见了你。
还记得你带我去那家咖啡馆，品尝杯上等的咖啡。也过了愉快的一天。
也曾经帮我在7-11泡那廉价的咖啡。亲手提给我，很贴心地加了两包半的糖。就因为我说两包不够而三包却太甜。
全都为了我。
然后，你竟然为我去学煮咖啡了！！

我不明白，我怎么会爱上咖啡，怎么会爱上你。
但我知道，那爱很单纯，值得让我继续：）

「表面上是苦，但如果你愿意，用另外一个角度去看它，它其实深深地隐藏着它的好。只被＂你＂看到。」

@ Brother Baba Budan, July2010.